Tuesday, April 6, 2010

my hands they shake, my head it spins.

i don't know how to take care of myself.
there are emotions in my brain i cannot explain in words
and don't want to
because i know they're irrational.
just give me a few days.
i don't know what good that will do, but it won't ruin my night tonight
at the very least.

i am the queen of envy.
let me bow to your every move
and choke myself in your wispy wake
for i am not satisfied with loving me.
give me every extreme. give me all of the world's emotions on a silver platter.
let me suffocate in my arrogance.

i want to be able to say what i want
mostly without saying it

i wish we understood each other
and i fear the worst word
deathly